15TH SEPTEMBER 2019
G’day guys, I’m sending a message out there to anyone – I don’t even know what to say. I set something in my calendar today to write a motivational speech, and I started to write it, I started to say a motivational speech, and I didn’t even know what I was going to say. I didn’t even prepare. I started to stutter. How can I have a positive impact on other people if I don’t even know what I’m going to say.
How can I have a positive impact on other people where I don’t know what’s going to go next. Well, I believe in myself. I believe in the process. I believe that what I’m doing feels good, has purpose. I feel good about it. And I’m confident in what I’m doing. I’m comfortable with what I’m doing. I’m very proud of what I’m doing. I just want to have an impact on one person, that’s all I want to do. All I want to do is have an impact on one person. I’ve already had an impact on many people in the last few years, mentoring young teenagers.
But I want to do it on a larger scale. I don’t get paid for this. I fund this. But it doesn’t matter about the financial side of it. What matters is that one day when I lay on my death bed, if I’m fortunate enough to realise that I’m actually dying, some people unfortunately have instant deaths and they’re not even aware or have time to reflect on their lives. But one day, right before I die, when the last thing I’m thinking about is anyone that doesn’t like me or despise me, I’ll sit back and think, everything I’ve done in my life, has there been any meaning?
Am I proud of what I’ve done? Can I pat myself on the back and say at least I gave it a crack. I know what the answer to that’s going to be. And even though there’s times that go through my head, and there’s certain people that I think about, and I could list the names off but I’d never do that. There’s people that I think about that I think they don’t like me. There’s people that I think about that think that I’m this type of person or I’m that type of person. And it bothers me.
And it makes me scared. And it makes me sometimes want to give up. And sometimes I get a little bit anxious, and a little bit paranoid. Sometimes I feel like giving up too. Some days I have my down days too. I’d love to sit here and say I feel positive, I feel great, all the time, you should feel like me. I’ve achieved this and this and this – I’ve achieved some great things, there’s no doubt about that. But I’ve still made a ton of mistakes. And there’s a lot that I still could’ve done better. But what I’m focused on is what I’m doing to be doing today. And I’ve got my goals and I’ve got my long term plans.
But you’ve got to keep moving forward, you’ve got to keep pushing forward. Even the most successful people in the world have regrets. Even the most successful people in the world sometimes feel like a failure.
Even sometimes the most successful people in the world commit suicide, and form self-destructive habits. And I’m not doing I haven’t done that. But the only thing I can control is today. I hope this video has an impact on someone. Even just one person slightly in a positive way. And even if no one watches this video, me doing this makes me feel good. It’s a way for me to positively affirm myself. Reconfirm what’s going on in my brain. And I feel good. I feel good about it. So I hope I’m having a slightly positive impact on your day. If anyone’s watching. And if they’re not, I’m okay with that. Have a nice day.